A curious girl, a wanderer

Picture after Ziggy Albert’s concert. The environment was so hipster, hippiesh, but very nice and easy going. I’m so glad I got to see him in person, plus it was perfect for dancing and feeling the rhythm of the songs.

Helene et Madeleine café avec Guillaume 🙂 It was a nice way to explore a different coffee shop, with a very unique and calm vibe, and a strange chai latte that tasted more like a milkshake, but still enjoyable. By the way, the lemon loaf cake was yummy.

Saying goodbye and letting go is not easy. This was the last sunset in this place before moving away. It doesn’t mean I won’t go back again, it’s just the end of a cycle or period. I can’t believe that I spent so many evenings sitting there. Waiting for the sun to set. Thinking. Dreaming. Breathing. It’s okay, though. One day I will go back and I will all be different. A new version of myself and better things, of course.

Spicy hiding under the bed on my last day on that studio.

I will miss you forever, Spicy. I know that you were loyal to me. You took care of me and gave me the best company I could have asked for when I was feeling homesick and lonely. You loved cuddling with me. You loved wandering around and exploring in my room.

My room being a mess before leaving my studio. I can’t believe I had to use four suitcases to pack all my stuff. Dang, and I’m just thinking that it was my «home» for almost 9 months. Time went by soooo fast.

Ready to go. Bye bye, Carle Vernet. Bye bye Rueil. My dearest Rueil.

And hello Argentueil 🙂 Beautiful sunset and beautiful company.

Bonjour Saint Maló. You took my breath away with your salty humid air and your clear blue ocean.

Another picture from Saint Maló. My weekend trip with great company 🙂 The driving felt like forever between the heat and the long hours, however it was worth it all. Wandering the streets, exploring and observing a different type of life. So different from what I am used to in Paris. Saint Maló felt vibrant in a very casual and beachy way. I guess the style, plus the traditions and architecture, and of course the coast, make this place a very picturesque destination.

Sunset in the French countryside.

Et voilà! Guess where this picture was taken?

Bonjour, Mont Saint Michel!

Oh my, how lovely you are!

And hello Leuven! How beautiful you are. It was a very improvised trip to Belgium after coming back from Normandy. It’s about 3 hours away from Paris. Very charming, but tiny, almost felt like a ghost town at times. Anyway, Downtown is lovely and it’s packed with different coffee shops, restaurants, stores and more. The weather though, was extreme! Very sunny and hot. Even hotter than Paris. Whaaaat?

Selfiie downtown 🙂

Enjoying the afternoon in a cutesy hidden café, drinking a natural/homemade berries smoothie.

This is a very random picture I took on the way to Dulmen, Germany from Paris. Let me tell you the story. The original plan was going from Leuven to Dulmen, which is maybe about 2 hours and a half away. However, due some problems in Argentueil, we had to drive back from Belgium to Paris, got there around 9:30 pm, made sure everything in the apartment was alright, and then guess what? We hit the road again straight to Germany. Leaving Paris at around 10:30 pm, and getting to our final destination around 5 am. It was absolutely CRAZY. But the company was great, and of course the music was nice,. We had our road trip. Lol.

Dulmen was pretty, but it definitely felt like a ghost own. I probably explored the whole town in about an hour. Also, I spent maybe another hour in a nice tiny book store where I was able to find 2 English books that seemed quite interesting. Anyway, I wasn’t able to pay because they didn’t accept card! Strange.

Next stop was Haan. Also in Germany. Maybe a little bigger than Dulmen, but still very petit. I really don’t have much pictures of that town because there was not much to do. However, this is a cute picture near a park in downtown. I thought the shot with the flowers, stairs and water was cool.

And I treated myself with a nice lunch at a Greek/German restaurant. It got a fresh salad and Schnitzel. By the way, the plates were SO big.

Hoy me siento perdida.

Me siento sola.

Me siento abrumada.

Me da tristeza pensar mi «survival mode» de los últimos días.

Tratando de encontrar un lugar en dónde dormir.

Un lugar en donde pueda refugiarme y esperar a que la tormenta pase.

No tengo trabajo.

No tengo hogar.

Y sí, sé que es temporal.

Pero no sé a dónde ir.

No sé qué dirección tomar.

No sé hacia donde voltear.

El tiempo pasa lento.

Mi cabeza se llena de pensamientos.

Y yo,

yo no puedo evitarlo.

No puedo dejar de pensarlo.

Dream big, they would say.

Have vision.

Have goals.

Never settle for less.

So there I was, 

daydreaming and night thinking.

because that’s what dreamers do,

they keep dreaming.

Maybe keeping the head in the clouds too much,

till the point that I became a wanderer.

Breathing new air.

Going from one place to another. 

Because also they would say, 

go to the place where you feel the most alive.

So eventually I found myself living a new life.

Feeling at peace,

wild and free,

yet the urge of running away

chasing me from time to time.

Feeling that the place hasn’t welcomed me entirely

because there’s always a time frame.

So it is true, seeking another life forces you to,

sometimes, 

lose the sight of all that familiar comfort of friends,

family, love,

and a home.

You are off balance. 

Nothing belongs to you except some dreams,

the air, the sky,

the earth.

And you find yourself packing all your clothes, 

while getting rid of some.

Throwing away so many things 

because the space is not enough.

Moving to places you don’t even know.

Trying multiple beds,

multiple pillows.

Yet craving that homey feeling

wherever you go.

Now you tell me, 

why haven’t I been able to feel at home in each country I go? 

There’s always this feeling of not knowing what is next. 

Running out of time to settle down. 

Sometimes feeling like a daisy who’s not grounded anymore. 

Feeling like I was forced to keep wandering by nature

because I had no other option.

Then I stop for a moment and realize that

it has indeed been a while 

since I haven’t felt at home.

It’s been a while since I haven’t been able to make myself comfortable 

knowing that nothing is taking me away from that place. 

And the same way the ocean removes the shells from the shore,

I can sense my footprints fading way.

And I’m aware the way my heart shatters 

every time 

I have to say goodbye.

And yes, 

we must take adventures to find the place

where we truly belong.

Oh, but all the places you’ll go.

There’s a moment 

of saying “this is enough”.

No more wandering.

No more goodbyes.

No more broken hearts, 

and broken dreams.

I crave that sense of belonging.

I am asking  to fit in.

To blend in.

And I just know that I know nothing,

and all these words

are coming from the bottom of my heart.

From myself to you.

-the wanderer (A.K.A Diana)

Ps. I tell myself «I don’t want to be the wanderer anymore» «How could I call myself then?»

Breathing dreams like air.

Free spirited person.

It’s April 22nd, 2023. It’s my birthday. Earth day as well. And I’m in Paris!

Omg! I literally waited 3-4 months for this amazing and long trip with my family! I still remember when we started planning it. It looked very far, as if time didn’t go by. But in the blink of an eye I was already taking a flight to Rome to meet my family there after not seeing them for over 7 months!

I could feel the excitement in every part of my body during the 2 hour flight. I was so eager to see them. And it indeed was as I had imagined it, or maybe even better. The first one that saw me was my sister. I mean, arranging to meet up in a big international airport like Rome’s, plus not having data is kind of hard. So finally my sister saw me from the distance and hurried to give me a hug and welcome me. Right after, of course, my lovely niece saw me and I could see how happy she was to see me there standing right in front of her. She literally approached to me tanning and gave me a long warm hug. The kind of hugs that show so much love. All the love accumulated in the last 6 months. And after that, my parents came to meet me too and hugged me and kissed me and we were just so loud and expressive that I could notice people smiling while looking at us.

It was magical. It was real.

There I was with my family. In Rome.

Rome was absolutely beautiful. Very old style, a little loud, yes, and maybe dirty, but it was still gorgeous. The people are very kind, of course. And all of them very excited to talk to us.

Also, the weather was incredibly nice and warm. I mean, compared to the cold gray winter I experienced over the last couple of months in Paris and during my trip to Sweden.

Fontana di Trevi was my favorite spot. Despite the craziness of the people and turista taking pictures everywhere, the sculptures and architecture was beautiful. It is a very vibrant city. The sun up in blue clear sky. The vibe is just something you can’t describe.

I fell in love with Rome.

I threw my coin to the fountain. Maybe one day life will take me back to Rome 🙂

I must confess I was so skeptical about going there. I was not interested nor excited about it, but let me tell you that as soon as we got there, the only thing I could think of was “I love this fairytale kind of gothic place known as Prague”. Actually my entire family thinks the same. We kept saying that it was such a lovely place. The downside though was the unexpected weather. It even snowed one morning! But oh my, it was lovely to enjoy the snow with my dad and see my little niece holding tiny snow flakes on her little hand. Also, the apartments-hotel that we booked were amazing. We really had a great time there 🙂

Some people call her Di,

while others Dian.

Well…

Let me tell you that

Diana loves love. 

She loves kindness. 

A warm hug.

A sweet smile.

Diana is a soul searcher.

She gets attracted, like a magnet, 

by those who have a gentle soul.

And let me tell you that, 

once she finds them,

she never lets go.

She deeply values a genuine connection.

She asks for vulnerability and intimacy.

She adores deep-long conversations.

Her purest gift is quality time.

Diana is so humanly imperfect.

She stumbles and falls, 

but she never gives up.

On the bright side, 

she lifts herself up, 

rising like the sun.

Diana is a free spirited person, 

with a tender heart and a curious mind.

She may even call herself an old-soul.

She is a wanderer,

so passionate about life.

Is she a dreamer?

Oh yes, she is.

She spends her free time thinking,

daydreaming,

admiring,

learning,

loving.

Diana is and adventurer at heart.

She enjoys exploring and discovering. 

She dances with the wind. 

She feels light and free.

That’s Diana.

A person who likes to be loved, 

but someone who loves unconditionally and deeply. 

Someone that appreciates special moments 

and keeps them as the most precious treasure.

She adores going on a walk with her own company.

That’s her meditation

Her way of finding peace.

Nevertheless she shares those walks with 

the people she cares the most. 

She thinks there’s nothing more beautiful

than sharing life together.

That’s it.

Diana may be a loner at times, 

but she is so willing to share,

and most important,

to give.

She gives so much.

She gives herself to those she loves

with no hesitation.

She would rather share a sunset 

with a loved one, 

rather than doing it alone.

Because company is what makes life beautiful.

At least more beautiful from what it already is.

Diana is here. 

Waiting.

Searching.

But she is present in this moment.

She is art.

She is human.

Diana is vulnerable.

Diana is growing.

Yes, I am growing.

Evolving.

And the same way flowers do, 

I will bloom in the beautiful garden 

of my life.

Still searching for my place.

A place I could call home.

Where are you?

Who are you?

I don’t know yet.

But I know you are there, 

that I’m getting closer.

That you’re waiting for me,

with your arms wide open.

This is a mini clip I made about my trip to Sweden and Denmark last week. I really did my best trying to select the best pictures to include in the video.

It’s definitely a cute one 🙂 Enjoy!!

Ps. I promise I’ll make a post describing everything about my trip with more pictures and everything 🙂