I came back to Mexico in January this year after being away for almost three years. I had created my own home, became very independent and would even call myself a free-spirit.

I came back to Mexico with only one suitcase, thinking that I was going to go back home to The States in a couple of months. Should I’ve known that everything would change, I wouldn’t have brought only one suitcase.

I spent the first three months in Mexico feeling so lost. I guess I experienced a very strong cultural shock. Dreaming about my days in Raleigh; my evenings watching the sunset in beautiful Lake Crabtree.

And in the blink of an eye, everything changed so drastically. I must say I wasn’t even prepared. But, isn’t life supposed to be like that? Changes happen unexpectedly. It’s like you never saw it coming. You never imagined that what you thought you had was already gone.

So that is exactly what happened. I lost the home that I had created with a lot of effort. I lost the dream of studying an MPH in a very well-known University in North Carolina. And I guess I used to even say that I had lost the person I loved the most. -However, since I’ve grown so much in these last months, I’ve come to realize that I didn’t lose anything. He was the one who lost me.

Therefore, I experienced very rough days. I felt so lonely, almost as if I was lost in a dark place. It’s even hard to describe what I felt, I’m not going to lie. I felt so hopeless, like if I was swimming in a river that was pulling me away even further and couldn’t get out.

It’s not easy to write this down. It’s not easy to talk about your feelings, especially when it is about something that hurt you so much. But it was true. Yeah, it was real. And even when I hated it so much, I realized that sometimes when you think it is the worst, on the other hand it’s a blessing.

Life redirected me in a good way. Life gave me a good lesson. It made me growth so much, listen to myself and love myself even more.

I’m recovering now. I’m growing like a flower in a beautiful garden. I’m raising like the sun in the mornings. I’m becoming stronger like the waves in the ocean. I’m creating a new chapter of my life.